Feelin' bad

Well, I'm feeling kinda down.
I've kinda been lingering on the thoughts of what happened last night (read previous blog entry if you're wondering). I know it happens, but... eh, I still feel pretty terrible that they had to clean up after my vomiting ass.

I was talking to Dillion, and he said that they were gonna put me downstairs in the dog cage (which I probably wouldn't have cared), but Monica wouldn't let them near me.

Which I thought was actually pretty sweet.

That's never really happened, haha. Most times when I get fucked up EVERYONE was in on fucking with me, I don't know- kind of cool that she noted how fucked up I was.

I'm still not COMPLETELY sure what I feel so bad about, I think I'm more ashamed that I got that fucked up, puked my brains out at George's.

Pacing is a bitch.

- Josh.

Even dicks have feelings.

Five minutes ago, I was feeling pretty good.

Now, I feel like shit.

Inadequate
Ugly (duh)
Useless

Ever gotten that lump in your throat, and it sort of hurts to swallow? That's such an odd feeling.

I've always had this philosophy, make fun of yourself so that no one else can.

Then... occasionally you'll read things about yourself that DO hurt.
That DO make you feel like shit... like my ex (Christina, mentioned quite often on here), and her friend (Kate) and because some people never really think who the fuck is gonna read something- they post it in a bulletin... A bulletin which I read, which follows suit.

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(noticed it on someones bulletin, randomly looking, kind of... hurtful... heh. )

christina: whats your favorite animal?
me: a three-toed sloth.



christina: thats so funny-because mines a wolf. and theyre much stonger.



me: alright?
christina: fangs. thats all I have to say.



-Kate googles picture of a three-toed sloth-
me: look at that thing! its beastly!
christina: it looks like my ex boyfriend.



me: wait..
-gets picture of douchebag and then pastes it next to the beastly animal-



WOW.



thats one striking fucking resemblance..

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If this was just one of my random ass friends I'd understand and I wouldn't REALLY care, but from a girl that I've always defended (even after we broke up) it... hurts.

Before I wrote this, I figured it'd be tit for tat- and fair would to call her a three toed sloth... but... I'm not going there.

I've kind of had it at this point, I fucking defend someone who goes around and apparently talks shit about me- and I fucking love shit talkers- BUT HAVE THE FUCKING DECENCY TO TELL ME.

It's bullshit.

I desperatly want to write something mean about her... but for the first time in my life I can confidently say that I'm not going down to that level.

Maybe I deserved it.

- Josh.

Ice Storms

So, It's 7:52 PM and I'm sitting at Mike Kochmans house with he and Cameron.

If you're a usual reader, you'd notice my lack of updates lately.

This is because of a shit piss fuck cunt asshole fucking nugget assclown clownshoes motherfucking ice storm on tuesday night.

It knocked out my cable, TV, and internet and HOPEFULLY it'll be fixed monday.

... fuck my life.

Josh Bennett vs. The Puppy Killer

David Motari is a 22 yr. old Marine from Hawaii, in his spare time he enjoys snowboarding and killing puppies.

There is a video that started circulating around the internet of a soldier (David Montari) killing a puppy by throwing it off of a cliff.

The video is here:



Now, if you wish to argue is being a fake- that's fine, but it's still fucked up.

There are TONS of these videos around of US soldiers harming animals, and people alike, and I posted one on RARmy and got in trouble... Anyways.
It's... sad to think that the people who are "protecting" us in the middle east are getting off by hurting animals.

As I was: That video made Digg's front page, and as usual- the power of the internet gave us information. We now know WHO he is, what kind of car he drives, and I decided to write a little letter to him:

Subject: Dear David

Hi David,

I'm not sure if you've gotten "hatemail" yet, but after seeing the video of throwing the puppy off the cliff, then all I can say is this:

FUCK YOU.

You've served in the military, well- too fucking bad.
You'll get no sympathy from me because you served in the military.

It was a puppy.
A FUCKING PUPPY.

You're one of the various reasons why we have such a bad reputation. I do my fucking job, do yours- but don't kill puppies in the process.

To be truthful, I wish NO harm on you. Want to know why?

Because that would be me sinking down to your level.
Your puppy killing, pseudo-masochist, jackass level.

You'll get what is coming to you.

- Josh.

PS: your Civic sucks.

It disturbs me that this is what they're doing in their spare time.
We'll see how this plays out, and if I get a reply.

The link to the Digg page is located below. Let's hope it stays up long enough for more people to make a stand:

http://digg.com/people/US_Soldier_throws_puppy_off_cliff_%28video%29

Tape.

So, it's sunday.
My day was alright for the most part.
We're having the phone lines replaced in our house- so the phones are out, and they won't be done until this week possibly.

I woke up, messed around, got online, and then hung out with Sam, Cory, and Becky for a bit.
It was pretty fun.
We went to Wendy's and saw a fellow who looked a lot like Jeffrey Dahmer, and this black dude who was talking to himself, staring at people.

That was essentially my day.

As for news in my "personal" life...

There is a girl.
I dig her a lot, and (unless I'm wrong, which I oft am) she digs me.
She wants to date, but... I'm not sure.
I kissed her on the cheek earlier :), fuck you! I can do cute things too!
Like I said I really dig her- but I just don't know if I should.

We all know I'm a bad guy, and I'm an asshole, and since Christina and I broke up, I've just been thinking about that a lot.

I wish I wasn't such an asshole, maybe then I wouldn't be afraid of hurting people in my life.

Eh, not sure.

Oh well.

Jesus my blog has been depressing.
Fuck.

I'm listening to Wu Tang Clan, I feel gangster- whereas I'm a fat white kid.

OH WELL.

- Josh.