Blind Moving

Good afternoon all.
It's 3:56 PM and I'm sitting here listening to Gnarls Barkley.

I'm feeling a bit down today.
Just a multitude of things building up in my head.

The worst one is by far how many of the people in my life are changing right in front of me, and there isn't shit I can do to sway them.

I think it affects me because I've been the same person for quite a while.
I know it's their life, and it's none of my business, but I hate the idea of someone changing into something worse, and I'm a terrible person- I can see when someone else is being terrible.

One of my friends snorted Vicodin the other night, and they said it's the greatest feeling in the universe. I was actually spiked to try it again, but- then I realized that it's a very silly thing to do.

Fuck it though.

All of my friends are doing exactly what I thought they would.

Moving on to do "their own thing", whatever that may be, and probably exhuming themselves from me.


Oh well.

I still got the Frizz, Clay, and the Daan though.


- Josh

Tape.

So, it's sunday.
My day was alright for the most part.
We're having the phone lines replaced in our house- so the phones are out, and they won't be done until this week possibly.

I woke up, messed around, got online, and then hung out with Sam, Cory, and Becky for a bit.
It was pretty fun.
We went to Wendy's and saw a fellow who looked a lot like Jeffrey Dahmer, and this black dude who was talking to himself, staring at people.

That was essentially my day.

As for news in my "personal" life...

There is a girl.
I dig her a lot, and (unless I'm wrong, which I oft am) she digs me.
She wants to date, but... I'm not sure.
I kissed her on the cheek earlier :), fuck you! I can do cute things too!
Like I said I really dig her- but I just don't know if I should.

We all know I'm a bad guy, and I'm an asshole, and since Christina and I broke up, I've just been thinking about that a lot.

I wish I wasn't such an asshole, maybe then I wouldn't be afraid of hurting people in my life.

Eh, not sure.

Oh well.

Jesus my blog has been depressing.
Fuck.

I'm listening to Wu Tang Clan, I feel gangster- whereas I'm a fat white kid.

OH WELL.

- Josh.

I hate most people my age part two

So, in keeping with my traditions of bitchery I have decided to complain about someone who left me a rather nasty Myspace comment, and then deleted myself from their Myspace.

First off, this person- never talked to them, randomly added them when they requested me one day, they're a friend of an old bud of mine, so I figured- why not, couldn't hurt.


This person was probably on my friends list for months, and never talked to me.

I'd see them post bulletins and bitch almost daily, and then today- I had it.

I saw up on status updates her name followed by ******** hates every single one of you (those asterisks were name censors), and so I figured to be nice- try and cheer her up. I comment her with this:

"Oh shut up, learn to love life and forget about the bad things"

... Ten minutes later... I got this myspace comment

"Fuck you, you have no idea, fuck off, you fucking rotter"

Was that really necessary?

Come the fuck on, I was trying to be cheery, and she comments back like some fucktard that I just showed my balls to her 2 yr. old cousins.

I was trying to be fucking nice!!!

Is it completely hard for that shit not to backfire on me?!

FUCKING SERIOUSLY.

Let me think about this:

"Hey, man Josh is feeling good and wants to be nice, and be a nice person for once, so let's make this next thing backfire and make him an asshole"

It's cunts like that which make me be an asshole.

- Josh

Let's Hope.

Good afternoon, it's 11:37 AM right now.
I'm feeling pretty good, not sure what to do today, but... I don't really care, I think it'll be alright.


Yesterday was alright, not too much happened though.
Woke up, did a bit of classwork, and talked to a few cats via AIM.

Went over to Clay's around 3 or so.
Matt was coming over, but then he got lost (mind you, Clay's house is EASY to spot, a giant fucking brown place next to an underpass, not exactly hard to find), and he only came up after he saw Greg show up.

We hang around playing some Rock Band, and then Patrick shows up.
After a while, we decide to play some laptop baseball, in which we destroyed a laptop for unspecified reasons.

Post-Laptop destruction, we sat around and played some CoD4 before Matt and I left.

Came home, got online, saw some disturbing pornography, and then watched Eli Stone.

Now, I sit here, bored.
Thinking.

Eh, maybe I shouldn't do that, gets me in trouble.

Journal Entry For Wednesday Oct. 24th.

Not much happened yesterday, I finished classwork around 11:00 AM, then watched some House, M.D. on DvR, followed by some "Monk" Afterwards Grabbed a shower, after I was drying off and got dressed Christina (my girlfriend called) and said she was already in town, usually she gets in about 5:30 - 6:00, but it was 4:00 or so. I dryed off my hair and left. I met up with her at the "falls" and we hung for a bit up there before walking around. she threw stuff at me and I threw it back (I'm telling you none of this is very interesting), and then we walked up to the Library, we went up to the Museum area upstairs, figured why not, well we ended up sitting around in there for like an hour and a half talking to one of the "curators". She was really cool, she told me a whole lot, she told us how Newton Falls used to be covered in trees before the Tornado in 85' and how Newton Falls is slowly falling apart and I highly agreed leading into a local politic discussion (mind you Christina is probably going insane at this point) and I'm talking to some lady about local politics.

Afterwards we headed back to my house, sat around for a while watching some "It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia", then went downstairs for some "Scrubs"... And other stuff.

*Ahem*

Well, she left around... 8:00 - 8:30, I came home sat around playing some SNES and listening to Eugene Mirman, 10:00 watched the new "Life", that show is fucking brilliant. If you haven't seen it then I seriously think you should, it's about a cop who was framed for murder 12 yrs. ago, he gets out from DNA evidence that is inconclusive, and he goes back and becomes a detective, while still in secrecy solving his own case, I think it's amazing....

After Life was over, I headed to the room, worked on some school stuff, and fell asleep around 12:30 to Eddie Izzard's "Dress To Kill" on the iPod.

First Post.

I've never had a blogspot, I don't know. Figured I'll give this a try, I'm not sure what this is going to be used for- possibly just journal updates, or odd things I think of, but if your reading this, then I just recommend checking back later.